Moving in With Alzheimers... Hide and Seek the next goal

My Boss gave me an option.
He bought a house in a really old town...
and offered me to move in.

I didn't want to. Not for a second.
But I realized the possibilities of advantage for my job,
the benefits for myself in this situation.
And how happy it would make my boss.
Causing me to further move forward.
Save my money.
No transportation issues....that's for sure....I just walk downstairs and I'm at work.

I did this before, I know, I remembered it believe me.
Cinsidering that little old lady was the best example of a loving mother I could have ever asked for...and we still visit often.
This one is different.
It's a completely different situation.
I thrive at my job,....I just bitch about it because I know I'm not supposed to do it forever...and I can't wait to begin whatever it is I actually am supposed to do...
I feel like I have 2 years or so to go....but I'm so much closer.

My Bosses daughter is 12.
In the past year that I've been working with her...she has grown such a significant amount.
And I wanted this opportunity. I prayed for it. I wished to be a positive influence a little bit stronger of a bond than the one I have with my sister.
To a young girl who needed me. Who needed someone who went through what she's going through.....

To be on the other side of a situation you go through in life is so much more gratifying than some of the things people could think about.

You get to see it from a perspective that allows you to soften your heart....it teaches you not to be angry, but to understand...and learn to most importantly forgive.
People quote that everything happens for a reason but it's rare that they even try to grasp
just what that reason is.





Recently coming along with this change are so many others....

I gradually embraced what become constant out of force from events in my life.

Is it any wonder when I fall in love I start acting like a lunatic?
Nothing good has ever stayed.

My life has been built off of negative strain which I've fought hard to change and just- be - happy....

It's all I've wanted...

How to be happy was the searching quest inside my heart.

I've found it. I just am.

Refusing to be content out of intelligence ....well....sheer stubborness to do better contributed...but...it's here.
There's a peace so close to my heart that I feel myself in a constant surrounding of what would seem to be something like light.
I can physically see the beauty in this change of my life.

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who can see it, but others have already started to look at me differently.

It's like air, but a little bit thicker...
you can see it just as clearly....
there's no fear, no hurt, no pain, and it's warm.


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Within the past two months, I haven't had one depression breakdown.
I don't think I've raised my voice once.
I laugh and find myself smiling every day for uncanny reasons...
It's easy to be, to live,..to go forward....and I'm not even bitter....about anything...
It's like a bubble...

So now that I am...just able to be me....and happy with myself....

The next two years goals....

I'm finishing school. Finally.
I'm going to pay off a new car.
Decent, build my credit.
Do myself a little good.
Figure this whole career path business out...
you laugh...I'm Determined!

I'm hiding in my bubble...so when it comes to real love ......
(which has been the question of so many people I know...)
time to come and find me.
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